Food for thought

So I got to thinking the other day...
(A bad habit I know, never a good idea for people like me)

What would happen if I didn't get into the program?
What would happen if I did?

I'm not sure that my reactions would be all that dissimilar between the two options. At the moment I'm kinda meh about either option. I'm not sure if this is what I really want to do with the rest of my life, but at the moment I don't see any other option. I can't stay in school forever, I'm getting tired of being forced to learn, and I'm getting tired of being told how to do things (in the classroom). I can't work in an office either, I need to be outside, in the fresh air working, teaching if at all possible outside. I'm at the point in my life where the real world is right outside my door, I can see it from my window and it is rather frightening, I'm not sure I'm ready for it. I had this feeling when graduating high school and it turns out I was ready for college, so I'm hoping the same holds true for the rest of the school year here. The worst part is I'm going to miss everyone so much.

Here is to the rest of the school year. Bring it on.